WHAT’s YOUR MOTIVE?
Proverbs 21 The Message (MSG)
God Examines Our Motives
21 Good leadership is a channel of water controlled by God;
he directs it to whatever ends he chooses.
2 We justify our actions by appearances;
God examines our motives.
3 Clean living before God and justice with our neighbors
mean far more to God than religious performance.
4 Arrogance and pride—distinguishing marks in the wicked—
are just plain sin.
5 Careful planning puts you ahead in the long run;
hurry and scurry puts you further behind.
6 Make it to the top by lying and cheating;
get paid with smoke and a promotion—to death!
7 The wicked get buried alive by their loot
because they refuse to use it to help others.
8 Mixed motives twist life into tangles;
pure motives take you straight down the road.
What is YOUR Motive? God asked me.
Lord to bring Honor and Glory to You!
I heard it again.
“Motive, what is your motive in this before we Cary on?” I felt the Lord press on me one morning after a week went by from the excitement for this next venture in the body of Christ I was to embark on.
So What is your motive at the moment, I asked myself, and I really had to check my Spirit for this, this time. What did He mean? I want to help people find their song and feel this love he has showered me with through His Glorification, I want to bring Glory and Honor to Him!
From The beginning of this path God put me on, I was exhilarated by His Glory. I was amazed and in awe of how he could take me from non musical to passionate about music creation, in one moment. It was the beauty of the creation that drove me. Seeing how he could take words from one, mixed with melody from another and seeing it come together as lovers of Christ work together in allowing Him to string together songs to Glorify Him. A realization that WE are to be apart of His symphony. And the beauty of how a song could connect a heart with his love.
He created a hunger and I became almost desperate to be a part of this Song in Honor and glorification to His heart, from ours. I was just so grateful for the sound of His voice to me in lyrics. Something I had never experienced before. I wanted to share it with all and ask all to help and be apart of creating this new song He laid so heavy on me. A space where everyone would feel welcomed and their opinions and hearts accepted and appreciated in growing this new song. A space where no one felt another came with an ulterior motive but purely with hearts to worship our King. But would others wanna be apart of this vision I had, well…
I am not a learned pastor, nor do I know near enough of Gods word, but I seek and absorb as much as I can when ever I can for what he has to offer through His word and His people.
I don’t know all the answers, but I know what the Holy Spirit makes me feel and encounter, I discern to follow Him and Him alone, and I have grace with everyone in my path with the help of these revelations He allows me to partake in while He smooths out the cracks of my own pottery. Mine is a story of occurrences and growth He shows me, the spaces I personally need fixing in. And I gratefully will go through every lesson if it is to praise and honor Him the way He needs me too.
But what has my motive become, the third time the question came through I had to be real, as these years have passed and my heart has taken knock after knock in the world?
1- Something to prove-
Was I doing this to prove something now, or was my motive still purely driven by his miraculous. The space He has shown me His ability through my life.
Heart Check one- for years I have been seeking doors to open where people I look up to would be graceful enough and patient enough to help me find the answers to my questions. It brought me to the hard lessons where He showed me He needed me to trust Him completely for this walk and not on man. But while on this path I have learnt most creative people are very closed minded and super individually driven, most people have been hurt by the industry and so have become cynical in the spaces of connecting with others, unless you had proven yourself worthy of the industry, all be it your confidence, your EP, your song on iTunes, anything in prooff that you’re worth listening to or to be connected with. Creative people including myself now, are careful, super careful with whom they partner with because they have had to endure ridicule or criticism or attacks from all kinds on their creativity and so become protective of their hearts.
People don’t believe that God is able to make it happen anymore.
Yes Lord I see, I suppose for a short while now through my frustrations with peoples lack of faith in my view of ‘absolutely anything is possible’ I wanted to prove to those through works, that didn’t believe I could do it, that I did it! I couldn’t sing, and now I can, I couldn’t play, and now I can, I never wrote a song, and now I do, I never thought I was good enough, and now I know who I am in Him…. So for a short while (thank God it was short) I found myself in I suppose the position that most people find themselves that have lacked confidence and encouragement, a space where people hold on to their disappointments and expectations, a space where I made it about ME proving MYSELF!
I HAD to check my Spirit and I saw the space where I needed to back track my thoughts and step back in alignment with God again, just as I was in the beginning, a space where I could just rest and follow as his footsteps made the way, back to the trust in Him, that all things is possible through Christ Himself. I wasn’t doing it, No no He was doing it. You see In the beginning of this walk with Jesus I was so green and fresh, I walked with a confidence that God is able in everything and He is super natural! He showed me how he could turn me around in a heart beat and I believed and trusted Him completely! But over time as people (most, actually unknowingly being used to allow my feelings of discouragement) chipped away at this confidence, as there was always this lack in encouragement from fellow Christians to help me push deeper and keep believing and take courage in his ultimate power, I started needing to prove myself In Order to be taken serious.
I started reacting like these people that weren’t supportive in my walk, I even got to the point where I would then Offer them the same fate. I just won’t support them.
Wow what a hard revelation this one is. Had I became the person with something to prove!??
2- Fear of disappointment
Heart check two- was I applying fear of disappointment to these steps God has placed at my feet in this new adventure He has opened for me?
Was I placing these new people God had placed in my path in the same disappointment bowel as the ones I felt caused it for me in the past? What was the problem? I needed to forgive the people from my past that I had no idea left a seed of hurt In my heart. I needed to support and cheer them into their next steps of their path and be loving and gracious, encouraging and uplifting to all people around me, that has been apart of this growth walk. A need for Encouraging in my heart Is something God has birthed in me, so it is something I will Be for others. God showed me His heart towards His people, all of His people and I want to feel and love with that heart towards all people regardless of what I get out of it, as long as it moves them forward into the plans and purposes God has for them to grow His kingdom, I want to be the cheerleader And encouragement for people to persevere for Gods plan.
The reality of the constant battle against self, and the path we are on, to be pure for Christ’s glory will always be there. As God moves us towards the purposes and plans of our lives for His Glory, the Devil will try to steal, kill and destroy, lie, and intimidate, He will use what ever he can to stifle us in our path. He doesn’t want us to succeed.
And as I record these steps of Gods plan in my life, sharing the embarrassing realities of self and of how I learn my revelation lessons in these blogs, I am grateful so so grateful to see His work in and around me with each step.
My prayer to Sing to the Lord a new song, birthed out of each church in South Africa and the world. Psalm 96:1- ‘new song’ used nine times in scripture.
My prayer is to connect people together and equip them to step in and stand together in creating that new song and sound, a ‘Heart song’ impressed on each house across our earth.
My prayer to create a space where professionals can impart to others the knowledge God has given them to encourage our ‘David’s of all forms’ to dig deep into their gifting and fire within to release that song confidently in Honor of our King.
My prayer to have a space where people feel encouraged -empowered by the Holy Spirit to connect with fellow hearts allowing iron to sharpen iron in the creation of these new sounds.
My Prayer is to help people see, we all have a song within, not just a songwriter, but the guitar player the bassist the drummer and the poet, the mom, a dad, a daughter, a son, ALL of us, and that together we need to stand to create this new song. I long for a space where people are accepted in this new song that have a fire within for it even if they can’t sing, but have something burning inside.
I want to encourage people to step into their fullness with Christ in this area of worship and every other area of that in which God burns within.
I Long to see revival.
A New Song, and I believe God has placed this on my heart for a purpose.
He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; Many will see and fear And will trust in the LORD.
Sing to the LORD a new song; Sing to the LORD, all the earth.
Sing to Him a new song; Play skillfully with a shout of joy.
A command to play instruments skillfully in exhortation
O sing to the LORD a new song, For He has done wonderful things, His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him.
Praise the LORD! Sing to the LORD a new song, And His praise in the congregation of the godly ones.
Sing to the LORD a new song, Sing His praise from the end of the earth! You who go down to the sea, and all that is in it You islands, and those who dwell on them.
I will sing a new song to You, O God; Upon a harp of ten strings I will sing praises to You,
And they sang a new song, saying, “Worthy are You to take the book and to break its seals; for You were slain, and purchased for God with Your blood men from every tribe and tongue and people and nation.
And they sang a new song before the throne and before the four living creatures and the elders; and no one could learn the song except the one hundred and forty-four thousand who had been purchased from the earth.
But is it the way I see it happen?
It doesn’t matter anymore, because I have no more motive, I trust God for this fire inside. And if this spark even just fires up one soul to dig back in and believe God is able to do all things miraculously, even make a passion in one mans heart to build a dream in little Port Elizabeth Into a beautiful display of the Fathers-heart that welcomes all into Our Fathershouse, then He can make It the base for His next revival.
I pray if you are reading this, for what ever reason God has put it in front of you and for what ever season you find your self, I pray you will check your motive in your doing within His kingdom, and get back to the space of trust and Faith, In Gods miraculous abilities to do the impossible. I pray you will take a breath and a step back into His footsteps, rest assured as He guides the way into His ‘God-plan’ for your life, stop limiting God- revival is coming.