Hebrews 10:23 So now we must cling tightly to the hope that lives within us, knowing that God always keeps His promises!
It’s been a while since I have written a blog, because day to day life has consumed my time and thoughts over these past four months…In all honesty, I have chosen this space to be in.
I have been drowning in my feelings of unworthiness and disappointed that my contribution of lyrics for Gods Kingdom have just not been good enough for acceptance in the spaces that I so seek. As I write constantly new lyrics, new songs, new melodies drowning in words that stay stagnant on an iPad, I feel sometimes why bother. I almost feel embarrassed to put these words down, but yet this is why I started these blogs. For 100% honesty and the realistic and pure truth in my walk within Gods plan. I believe in His promise deep within me still, and although I feel broken by this world at times, these revelations He teaches me is just so worth every tear I shed.
My chosen day to day reality is this. My day usually starts with waking up in the morning at 5:30, make sandwiches for school and work for my family, an of course a coffee for me. Take my coffee climb back into bed and go read Gods word for daily inspiration and write a few things down (either a song or blog or feelings or ideas about this life with Jesus) before I get ready for work.
But (If I’m totally honest with you, the space I have been in, in this time it’s not all Jesus.) I get distracted by a WhatsApp, I check my finances, I read My Daily devotional, as well as the WhatsApp devotional I get from my mom… (and sometimes it feels like a gazillion other people) scroll through Facebook and Instagram, and at around 6:55 I start rushing to get ready for work, shoot out to drop my youngest daughter at school, get back in the nick of time for my first client, and then I take my next breath really at around 6/6:30 pm after my last client leaves. Supper, and then the couch for series while everyone is on a tablet and a phone for Facebook and insta, slime videos or Fortnight (if your my youngest daughter) just Incase the series has a boring spot. And around 10pm I get into bed, just for the same day to start again.
I chose to be in this rat race myself, because I felt what’s the use of it all?
I chose to get lost in the wrong moment.
Well I feel like our God allows us to wallow for a bit, but He always waits for us so patiently to get over ourselves, all while He always offers these revelations of truths along the way. That little voice where He whispers, that keeps telling you ‘I am waiting. Waiting for you to submerge yourself In Me and my moments, not the moments of the world’.
So submerge yourself in Gods word, there you’ll find the answers and testify of each and every moment with Him that He reveals to you.
I had a moment with Jesus like this, this past weekend, after weeks of seeking help with releasing the story of the birth of Christ this on coming season and just hitting walls again, I was asked to offer the testimony about the song I wrote called ‘Boldly’ produced by the talented Isaac Moore from Charlotte North Carolina and sung by God’s beautiful songbird Melissa Marks from Dawson’s Creek, British Columbia, Canada, both of whom I am still to meet face to face one day I pray. And once again God so gently reminded me of the why’s, how’s and when’s of His plan, And timing, and just of how incredibly great His is, nothing is too big for Him.
The story behind the song ‘Boldly’ in short is this.
Approached by a man at a conference years ago it was prophesied that he saw me behind a keyboard worshipping my own words to God. I thought he was mad at that point, and walked away thinking, ‘I can’t even play piano?’ At the mere age of around 20 I was very lost, and almost irritated by the church and the judgments of it. I didn’t understand God, or how He could be real. He was just and idea.
A couple of years later as a married couple we found our feet in Oasis family church. God started awakening my hunger for Him, I had so many questions.
Eight years later, God revealed to me a poem after the death of my Father. Years I prayed to hear His voice audibly, years I prayed for Him to prove to me that He was real. And through these words He spoke to my heart in such a special way. I became so hungry for Him. Scouring His word as He revealed lyrics in my mind. Lyrics that In turn gave me healing for my broken heart. But as much as I wanted to share these lyrics, I still felt unworthy, untrained and unqualified. Offering these words to people for help to create the finish product was so daunting. It has been another ten years of praying, and learning in Gods word, writing the songs He releases to my heart and through my pen, and seeking the purpose for them, that I find myself writing about the day God gave me these scriptures of encouragement confirmation and a call for us to Boldly testify.
It wasn’t until watching my sister battle cancer so bravely, while testifying through her struggle all the way that I received these words. It was this song, through His scripture that made me carry on. As it is still hard for me in my flesh to offer these songs to people that are proficient in music, in fear of their criticism or disregard as these songs all mean so much to me in my reality of the Living God and my passion to share His word through song. God spoke to me that day through these scriptures, and that day I made a decision, that no matter how tough and no matter how many times I hit a wall, no matter how many people shut me down (unbeknown to their actions) I would keep testifying of Gods greatness.
Hebrews 10 :19-25
Hold Fast Your Confession
19 Therefore, brethren, having boldness[f] to enter the Holiest by the blood of Jesus, 20 by a new and living way which He consecrated for us, through the veil, that is, His flesh, 21 and having a High Priest over the house of God, 22 let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water
God opens doors, the right doors, in spaces far more extravagant than we can ever imagine.
So keep testifying of Gods greatness. Because of Jesus we CAN approach Gods throne of Grace.
These words of mine, this testimony of mine were spoken and released this past weekend across the seas released from another’s lips to the people God destined for them to hear.
Along with the very special and amazing words God released to me from my mother, unbeknown to her.
You see, this new friend of mine Melissa Marks asked me this past Friday morning (her Thursday night being in Dawson Creek British Columbia, Canada and we are in South Africa six hours apart) to listen to one of her songs she would be doing at a woman’s conference along with ‘Boldly’, for my opinion and thoughts of the words.
As I awoke to the message it was 5:30 am when I snuck out of the room into the kitchen to listen where my sleeping family would not be stirred. Just as I finished listening, the WhatsApp message from My mother that she so diligently sends every morning with the daily devotional, it came through at exactly 5:35, giving me the answer that Melissa was seeking. My mom didn’t hear the song. She still hasn’t heard the song. But God released the meaning through her to me, making her contribution to be apart of the testimony of this song so vital. My mom is the true reflection of Boldly testifying for God. Her diligence and endurance for our Father is so inspiring.
‘A Beautiful journey’ is the realization that once we go into a relationship with God, that earthly trials and troubles in our human bodies are all part of this beautiful journey to one day be with our eternal God. And having a relationship with Him makes everything we go through worth while,
The daily devotional said this-
Daily Bible Verse: 1 Thessalonians 4:17
‘And so we will be with the Lord forever.’
– Eternity with the Lord, is His plan for your future.
– We are eternal spiritual beings having a temporary physical experience.
– Often life seems so overwhelming that we think that that is all there is.
– But let me remind you that you are destined to be with the Lord forever.
Prayer: Lord, thank You for this earthly life You have blessed me with. But may I never forget that I am one breath away from Your presence and my eternal future with You.
God bless you.
Her next song also written by Isaac Moore was ‘Lost in the moment.’
Listening to Lost in the moment- God Brought me this scripture-
-14 For this reason I fall on my knees before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth receives its true name. 16 I ask God from the wealth of his glory to give you power through his Spirit to be strong in your inner selves, 17 and I pray that Christ will make his home in your hearts through faith. I pray that you may have your roots and foundation in love, 18 so that you, together with all God’s people, may have the power to understand how broad and long, how high and deep, is Christ’s love. 19 Yes, may you come to know his love – although it can never be fully known – and so be completely filled with the very nature of God. 20 To him who by means of his power working in us is able to do so much more than we can ever ask for, or even think of: 21 to God be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus for all time, forever and ever! Amen.
A prayer ever heart seeks to connect with, a space every soul needs an encounter. But on our knees is where the Spirit is able to speak.
You see, In times where we feel so undervalued and so unworthy, God can use you without you even realizing. That humble offer of an everyday WhatsApp devotional sent diligently through everyday at 5:35, by my mom was all God needed to reveal His heart to Melissa about the songs she was to minster about far away, across thousands of kilometers at that woman’s conference.
Your offering might be so small in your eyes, but it is apart of the greater picture in this walk we have within Gods plan, it’s worth so much more than just you and your walk.
Don’t under estimate your purpose in Gods Kingdom. Don’t undervalue what He is doing with your walk. And never think that your part is to small and isn’t vital to the Kingdom. He has created each of us specifically and uniquely perfect for the part He needs us for.
Wether you are the one on The stage releasing the song, or just the one forwarding the message with the key, the one stringing together the sound behind closed doors or what ever the part. You don’t always get to see how what you do plays a role, but realize that your role is vital.
Submerge yourself in the right moment, in the God moments, and don’t get distracted by your human emotions, you may have them, but don’t let them consume you. You ARE a vital part of His plan. Even if you can’t see and speak your testimony to people, someone will. As He our Father God knows best.
Here are the links to the songs.
– Beautiful journey
Lost in the moment
Our fears sometimes keep us from realizing that God is within us. All we need to do is allow His radiant light to shine through by believing in Him, and all Self will fade away.
So go on and Boldly testify for our God!